Oh yeah! I'm so excited! Yesterday I saw a billboard near where I work with me and the other cast on it - it's obviously digital renderings, I maybe only know a couple of those people personally, but it's still awesome.
In its own way. I'm only an intern so I don't get to be on screen, but I have been trying to audition for background roles! I figure if I do a good job on this reality show, I could use that as a stepping stone to get a spoken part. Getting to be on TV with a recurring role is the goal.
...I just think it's something to keep in mind. If it doesn't feel right--if. If it seems too slapdash or unsafe...I hope you'll walk away. I hope you'll be able to make that choice.
It doesn't matter, because nothing is going to happen! We're going to go to space for a couple weeks, do some stupid funny crap for tv, and that's that.
[oH. it does sound...really negative...doesn't it.]
I'm sorry. The whole venture, it--it just seems so...strange. To have that technology so suddenly? For a show, it...I don't know, Loma. I'm worried about what will happen to you--to all my friends out there.
I'll be very happy to be wrong--and, and happier still if you get to have what you want. Truly! I just-- I, I don't know...
Well you shouldn't be. We're going to be just fine. Hell, you can just turn on your tv and watch us being just fine! You're getting worried for no reason!
[ and she has to say that, because now she's getting nervous, a far cry from how ecstatic she was to hear of her selection. ]
...I can't promise not to worry. It's impossible. But... I'll trust you. And the others. I'll root for you and...trust that things will be fine. I can do that much, from down here.
[ she can take care of it, like always. but... she isn't used to people caring about her enough to check-in. when you live a life of not getting close to people, genuine concern is a rarity. to that end-- ]
[ friends. she hates that word and doesn't want the responsibility that comes with it. she wants that word and to be part of it. she doesn't know what she wants. ]
Good bye, Manabu.
[ and she hangs up, not willing to wait for a response. ]
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Ahm. So, so I saw—or, heard...about that space gig...
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[beat.
BE MORE TRANSPARENT ABOUT YOUR UNEASE MANABU
I DARE U]
Hey, Loma? Have you...been to space before?
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No.
[ not. entirely untrue. travelling between planets on a cosmic stream of intense power is not the same as "being in space." ]
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So—this, the show. The crew...are they putting you through training? Flight mechanics, safety measures...
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[ bright... side... ]
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Well—well, is there a schedule for that? Before you and all the others are sent up?
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Hey, Loma?
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[ she's. not sure. ]
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[sigh.]
...I just think it's something to keep in mind. If it doesn't feel right--if. If it seems too slapdash or unsafe...I hope you'll walk away. I hope you'll be able to make that choice.
If not--let me know. I'll find a way to help.
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...Can you survive in space? If something happens?
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[hhh.]
I hope you're right.
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[oH. it does sound...really negative...doesn't it.]
I'm sorry. The whole venture, it--it just seems so...strange. To have that technology so suddenly? For a show, it...I don't know, Loma. I'm worried about what will happen to you--to all my friends out there.
I'll be very happy to be wrong--and, and happier still if you get to have what you want. Truly! I just-- I, I don't know...
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[ and she has to say that, because now she's getting nervous, a far cry from how ecstatic she was to hear of her selection. ]
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[exhale.
beat.]
...I can't promise not to worry. It's impossible. But... I'll trust you. And the others. I'll root for you and...trust that things will be fine. I can do that much, from down here.
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[ she breathes in and lets it out, closing her eyes. ]
Sorry. I've just... it's been a rough couple weeks. This is the only good thing going for me right now.
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smaller:] Is...there anything I can do?
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[ she can take care of it, like always. but... she isn't used to people caring about her enough to check-in. when you live a life of not getting close to people, genuine concern is a rarity. to that end-- ]
Thank you though. For calling me.
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[ friends. she hates that word and doesn't want the responsibility that comes with it. she wants that word and to be part of it. she doesn't know what she wants. ]
Good bye, Manabu.
[ and she hangs up, not willing to wait for a response. ]